Picture a brisk fall night. Leaves are rustling. The wind is slightly blowing under the starry night sky. I am in my favorite comfy pajamas under the nice cozy warm blanket. The smell of the heat turning on for the first time this season. That moment when I am sleeping so soundly, I mean, the best sleep of my life and then suddenly I hear …”Hi Mommy.”
“Ahh!!! You scared the mess out of me! Go back to bed…uhh wait, go potty first. Mommy loves you, you just scared me but you are not in trouble, ok sweetie.” As my heart pounds like I just saw a ghost in a state of utter confusion!
This happens almost weekly.
In the wee hours of the night at least once a week, our daughter gets out of her bed oh so quietly, opens her door just barely so it won’t creak and so the owl chime I placed on her door won’t make a peep, walks down the very dark hallway, and into our room and stands by my side of the bed(for how long?! God only knows, literally!) and then eventually I guess she gets tired of just watching me sleep and finally says “Hi.”
You would think that I would be used to it, but nope, I am not! (It’s ok to laugh, it’s sorta funny.)
So later on in the mornings, as I talk this over with my husband on the phone with my inside whispering voice, crouching under the blankets (so Little C won’t hear me, I wouldn’t want her to get a complex or anything, you know.) I secretly confess that her nightly guest appearances freak me out! He lovingly validates me…NOT! My husband says, “well, at least she is not afraid of the dark!” I thought I was supposed to be the positive one?!?! Dang it, my husband has a point though(yes, D, I admit it ok! You are right.)
Oh, to be able to walk boldly and confidently!
D and I are always trying to instill in our kids on a daily basis that they are fearfully and wonderfully made, that they have nothing to fear because God is always with us, that they are special, important, and loved. Our 3 year-old-daughter(yes, Little C had a birthday recently!) is not afraid of the dark and she is confident in knowing that she is not alone and knows the path to her parents room, even in the dark.
I told you that my crew of 3 are pretty awesome teachers, right!?!
Like Little C does with us, God wants us to know Him so well, so boldly, so confidently, so intimately, that we will not be afraid of the path that it takes us on to get to Him, even in the “dark.” Psalm 23:4(NIV) states, ” 4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a],I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”
We are all walking away from something and are all walking towards something, that’s just a part of life. But, oh how great would it be if we all were walking towards our “IT” and leaving the fear, doubt, and hesitation behind, even though it may seem like you are in the “darkest valley” right now?
Do you need to have your “Hi Mommy” moment with God? Little C knows that no matter what time of day it is, whether we are asleep or awake, whether it is light or dark; that she can come to us confidently and boldly , even if it is just to say “Hi!” God is a good Father and unlike me in all of my humanness, He is waiting for that moment when we all come to Him and He will never be startled by your greeting, even if it is at 3 AM.
As I intentionally remind my children, I want to remind us(yeah, me too) as well, that you are loved, you are wanted, you are fearfully and wonderfully made, you have a purpose, you have nothing to fear, and God is always with you- even when you are trying to figure “it” all out.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Psalm 139:13-15New International Version (NIV)
What “dark valley” are you walking through? Do you realize that you don’t have to do “IT” alone? Have you had your “Hi Mommy” moment with God yet? It is never too late!