I have been having some “ah-ha” lightbulb moments that have been feeling the way I suppose my toddlers feel sometimes when we say it’s time to go to bed.
I love my babies and love their little bedtime cuddles.Even though they are aware of the routine, it’s still something about the actual idea of going to bed that really messes with them for about 5 minutes. I guess they realize that what we say we actually mean(who woulda thought!) and that they may miss out on something. This happens almost everyday. You’d think this would be something that they would be used to and look forward to. Most days…nope. Ha!
Today my lightbulb moment was more like a lamp without a shade turned on when you are just waking up. It was right in my face!
“You act the same way” I heard. Huhrr? (in my Scooby Doo voice) .
What I was hearing is that God was letting me know that He does things in my life for a reason at specific times. He is preparing me for what is to come. He’s causing me to take a break, be still, and get rest. I have failed to realize that I have been having those “I don’t want to go to bed” moments because of situations or things that I did not want to do even though I know the routine and that it is for my betterment.
Who wants to be in a box? Who wants to be told what to do? That’s no fun, right! It can actually change your destiny though, if we let God have His way.
What God was showing me is that I have been putting Him in a box, limiting Him by trying to do what I want to do and not trusting in Him, in His timing and His plans. He showed me that yes, there are limits for my better good. Limits are the protection that you need while you are in certain seasons of your life so that you don’t go ahead of what God has in store for you and so that you fully trust in Him.
Last summer our finances were a little tight as we were going through some life adjustments. Me and all of my “wisdom” tried to take matters into my own hands because God has better things to do, right? So, I signed up to give plasma. There’s nothing wrong with plasma donation however for me, I was not sitting still and trusting that God would provide, like He said He would. Each time I went to the office, from the very beginning, something would be off or just not go right. But I would not listen or would ignore the signs that God was trying to give me. Against God’s will, I kept going. After the third or fourth time, as I was sitting in the chair finishing up, I heard “this will be your last time donating plasma.” I sort of brushed it off. I got in the car, ate a snack and drank some juice to replenish and rehydrate what I had lost like I always did, as we drove to the park to play with the kids. It was the perfect day, nice, sunny, and warm.
Next thing I know, I am laying out on the woodchips with a crowd of people around me. My husband is calling my name and trying to keep an eye on the kids. I get up and then next thing I know I am on the ground again, this time in a different spot. I passed out twice. My disobedience and stubbornness had led me to this point. The look on D’s face alone was enough to break me. He was terrified and you could tell he had no idea what to do. My impatience and lack of faith literally knocked me to the ground.
Shortly after, we fully surrendered our finances, our family, and the season that we were in to God and so many things began to change for the better.
Just like going to bed and being obedient, boxes serve as function. It’s what you do with the box that can help you or it can be completely useless.
If a box is flattened, you can’t put anything in it. In the same light, when we think of a box, we think of 4 corners, 4 sides and that’s it. But if that box, or your season is folded, turned, straightened, or even multiplied into 3-D, the perspective of that boxes’ usefulness will be very different even though it is the same structure.
Sometimes we have expectations and things that we want to go our way. We get upset or try to emit the limits when our expectations are not fulfilled, however when we do this we are not fully relying on God. We are actually putting God in a box and are limiting Him. Remove the limits you have on God. Trust where God has you right now. He has your best interest in mind. Let’s take God out of the box, it will open up a whole new life for you and I.